To be able to comprehend Spirit we fill in the gaps with our mind to make the presence of spirit palatable to our ego, usually by giving them a physical form as a guide of some sort. Some people therefore experience Spirit in a human form, others as an element of nature, an animal or even extra-terrestrial.

Often, I hear people talk of guidance from their spirit guide, in terms of them being told to ‘do this’, ‘think that’, ‘give up this thing’, ‘change that’, and then being told off for not following the guidance if they don’t do it. I also hear of guides who apparently use the opportunity to reach beyond one person and out to another, in the form of ‘my guide is telling me to tell you XYZ’. I personally believe that is ego sub-personality and not spirit.  Spirit never interferes with your or anyone else’s free will. (****Arrow down for more on some PC’s)

Spirit always guides us toward what we need to experience, not necessarily what we want to experience – there’s a big difference. I used to believe that spirit was guiding me into the best things in life, but soon learned that spirit was actually guiding me into the lessons that would teach me to find love over fear. Some of those lessons were tough to deal with, but when you face your inner fears you come out stronger.

However I am forever curious, like a child that always has to ask why. Why would spirit choose to guide me into finding love over fear? One answer was because spirit also evolves by guiding us in this way, they also move closer to love. This was not a good enough answer for me, so the irritating child wanted to know why spirit (being non-physical), would need to find love as there is no ego (fear) in the spirit world.

The next level of understanding was to really know that there is in fact no separation, we are all one, and that unless we reach a tipping point in consciousness where enough people choose love over fear, we won’t become the loving oneness that is our true potential. The more converts to love spirit have the faster they, and we, all ‘go home’, otherwise known as not living in dualism of love and fear, but loving in its fullness.  At this point I could see spirit as one collective consciousness, one that we are also a part of in our consciousness. Of course not in our ego consciousness, but in our awareness, at the level of awareness we are all one, not just in the physical world, but also in the afterlife.

Those who are lost to us through death, are not lost, we know we carry them in our hearts and memories. However it is much deeper than that, we still travel with them at the level of the awareness. We don’t have to move on when someone dies, we have to move in a different way. Our dead loved ones travel with us, and us with them, at the level of the collective consciousness through the conduit that is love. They are in our hearts, through our hearts, and we are intertwined with them. Their physical form is no more but their presence is as vibrant as ever, and sometimes even more so. As we become more connected to the collective consciousness through opening our hearts, feeling rather than thinking and being open, so we can know our loved ones in a completely new way. Without hanging onto old physical identity through the ego, we can still feel the life presence.

All of this is also true for the evolution of our connection with spirit guides, which leads us to the evolution of human consciousness. My experience of this was during one of my curious moments, I asked where Spirit wanted me to be guided. I felt like my fingers had been plugged into the electric socket of life, I was connected to the oneness and it all fit into place. There was no separation between spirit and physical people at the level of the awareness.

During a vision quest, I spent a few hours with a guide I had known since childhood. I can’t remember him not being in my life, but for the past few years, I haven’t had a conversational connection with him. I have felt him being there, but I have received no ‘guidance’ from him in anyway. I realised consciously, that since by self-faith had grown, I no longer needed him as a security blanket for life or my work. He had taken a non-present form in my life. During this vision quest he was back and showing me some extraordinary things. I began to wonder if I had been wrong about the collective consciousness as here he was in the vision in my mind, back in human form. I asked him how this was possible. He smiled and showed me that he was a splinter of my own consciousness, and that I was a splinter of the whole consciousness. You could see this as being drops of water in a great ocean, but knowing that there are no drops, just one big ocean. With that he blended with me and I realised that we can have access to all that there is to know, when we are in the level of our awareness.

This is the collective consciousness. This is Spirit. You are an aspect of Spirit guiding humanity while you are guiding yourself through the obstacles of fear, trying your hardest to embrace love. You are the butterfly effect, affecting everything that you want to change by choosing how you agree to look at it. Which eyes you use, the eyes of Spirit or the eyes of Ego, is your choice, everything is a choice. You get to choose how you wish to guide humanity; your consciousness is at the helm of the ship. Your life plays out what you bring to the table in terms of your vision. You might not get to choose the incidentals of your story. Where you were born, the health of the body you were born into, but you do get to choose what you make it all mean. That is your part of the ship, your choices guide humanity, and in a small way that guides a much larger collective. Spirit doesn’t guide you, you guide Spirit and Spirit assists you in your purpose if it brings you closer to love and disregards anything related to fear, as fear doesn’t exist in Spirits being.

I know that often the responsibility of making our own decisions can feel too much. Believing that Spirit guidance is outside of you gives you a wonderful support. I wouldn’t want to take that support away from you. However knowing that you are part of the wisdom that is available, must perhaps allow you to see just want you have to offer to the state of humanity. This is your choice, if you choose love, you have no other option but to choose to be a shining light to guide people toward love, by your own example.

Light of spirit has changed, it once was a website to promote my work with clients, now that’s crossed over to www.beckywalsh.com. Now light of spirit is a production company for spiritual and transformative theatre.

My first career was in theatre as a stage manager, I produced a few shows too. The reason why I got involved with theatre, was to give people en-mass that feeling of change when you have seen a performance. Energetically an audience connect with the feelings of the characters. As the sub-conscious mind doesn’t know the difference between imagination and reality a person can grow and learn when the performers are creating an amazing peace of emotive theatre. That is what I wanted to do. Yet a starry eyed young girl found that in order to live, small scale off the back of a truck touring isn’t going to pay the bills, so I fell into musicals and got stuck there until I shifted career and found I could give that feeling of transformation from intuitive insight.

Theatre has never left me, I created the ‘stand up psychic show’ and I continue to have fun with that. But whilst I took some study time out in San Francisco I reconnected with my love of theatre through a form of theatre called ‘Playback’. Whilst performing playback I could see how nicely it fit into intuition, as intuition could give insight into the story being told. So I expanded the form changing it to suit the work of transformation that I feel is needed in the world.
I also studied a form of double blind ‘family constellations’ and form myself in a situation of profound connection to spirit. ‘Family conciliations’ is a of physiotherapy that I believe has great transformation not only for the living but for the ancestors too. I have taken this and added new concepts to it.

I had often had a clash from old work to new work in regards to mediumship. Going to see a platform medium giving messages from the spirit world is one of those ‘shows’ where most the audience leave disappointed and (depending on the medium) its quite dull to watch. I also felt that it didn’t interface as much as I felt it should with love. Love is the connection between the person in the audience and the loved one they lost. Although evidence is important I don’t believe it is more important than love.
The events and forms on this website are about taking in mediumship and intuition into experimental forms. The idea is to bring healing, love, humour and community.

Right now I am looking for like minded mediums and intuitive minds to join me. In fact a lot of what is needed I can teach to the right person. With that in mind I am also looking for performers with an intuitive leaning. Grounded common sense is a major requirement. Classes and rehearsals are likely to be in Bristol, although a second London company may also be created.
This is an exciting and scary project, which I am well aware, will create some controversy, but then… when hasn’t my work done that!

Enjoy looking at the site and let me know what you think.

Having just left San Francisco for New York, the sun is rising up in my rear view mirror of hind sight and I am able to start to see what it was all about. A rite of passage.

Rites of passage are more expected when you are a teenager going into adulthood, but a rite of passage can come at anytime. They are the mini shifts towards enlightenment and sometimes you need a bigger shift. During a rite of passage you have to die to everything you were before to be reborn. In tribal cultures that would mean being removed from your tribe, or in my case ‘London’, letting go of everything that you identify yourself with, in my case, my house and all my stuff and then you come back to the tribe with a special boon for that tribe, I guess that’s the new work (www.beckywalsh.com)!

In order to really shift we need to find a safe container for ourselves to face our shadow in a supportive environment. For me that was my cohort at California institute of integral studies. The school acted like a ritual elder to give a luminal experience. The cohort allowed me to express my light and shadow without judgement.

Open up to another level of our human potential and shedding what has held us back is a vital part of our growth. Sadly in the western culture we are often forced to do this alone. Running away to weekend workshop, retreats and seminars never telling those people who are close to us the transformation we are going through, as expanding our consciousness is still considered odd even now. Not having a supportive community gives is a luminod level of growth. We feel we are not allowed to bring the gifts back to the tribe and unless we grow with others are growth feels redundant.

If you are feeling your leaves are reaching for the sunlight in the darkness, find someone who can act as a non judgmental catalyst to aid your growth. We know what we need to make us whole, the body reaches for it, and we just need to allow ourselves to move with support. It is out rite of passage to stay in health and alive.

San Francisco is one of the most liberal cities in the world. But white van man has become the face of a system in the mind if the red faced girl. He now, is the face of white male supremacy. He is likely a window cleaner, or an electrician. In this moment he has become the face of the lack of forgiveness for the past.

Is that because Gay marriage is still not OK in California? Is it because no-one acknowledged what the generation before hers suffered to get her to be able to hold her girl friends hand in the streets of San Francisco? Is this what Harvey Milk was fighting for?

The next day England plays Germany in the world cup and becomes far more upset about the 1 – England 4 – Germany defeat, than I have ever heard talk about the war. I don’t hear talk of the war. I don’t hear anyone being angry at Germany. Apart from the football backside kicking we got, even then we blame our own team.

In America I feel the anger still from the black community about slavery. Is this again, because it was never acknowledged? Generations later still feel the pain of it in their body.
What keeps us angry? What makes us forgive? What causes more hate? Homophobia? Racism?

I don’t have the answers for you, only for myself. I can only tell you want makes me make decisions about other people and their motives. We all judge at the level of the ego. We all act out this rage at the level of the ego. It isn’t at this same level that we hold any of the answers. The answers only exist at a shift of consciousness. I pray we reach it. In the mean time, whatever my ancestors have done against you. Whoever I was when I have been unconscious of myself, I humbly apologise.
For the sack of the Chiwawa’s rede faced girl let’s move on, because it’s really your large breasts that could kill them if the anger makes you squeeze them to death!

Albert Einstein once said: ‘The problems that face us cannot be solved at the same level of consciousness that created them. What we need is a shift in consciousness’.

What the shift of consciousness looks like is very hard to explain but it is only my ego that will be able to put into words, inner knowing has no words. So in the crude description I believe that we will no longer communicate through words that through our energy towards each other. I believe that sexual connection will be a pure form of expression of love. Possibly intercourse would be reserved only for making children as we were found deeper ways of being able to fulfill sexual needs. I believe that sexual connection will not be reserved to one life partner. But we were feel a next action of love that is inclusive, and not possessive. This does not mean that we will not have life partners but that our choice of partner will be governed by the person that we want to grow through life with. Many people don’t realise that for a woman being in a relationship with one man for the rest of her life is a dream come true. For a man being in a relationship with one woman for the rest of his life is letting go of a dream. For a man he dreams more of being in the presence of a full range of women. Why wouldn’t he? Woman are awesome!! Long term relationships are for one letting go of a dream and for another a dream come true. Put like this, it hardly seems right. I am not saying that men should sleep around if he wants to. Just that there is an expanded non-ego based view. The ego will always lie or justify to make its dreams come true. When we expand our view of what love means, we simply can’t limit love to bring one persons dream into life whilst killing another. That simply isn’t love, its ego.

For many people currently being in a relationship is about limiting options rather than expanding them. This isn’t a 1960s idea of free love, but a way of being able to feel the presence of God in another person bringing out the presence of God in yourself.

Of course there is the opposite idea that we might not shift consciousness that we might stay working through our ego. The next hundred years would not fill me with optimism if you were still coming from a place lack of balance. In this case I would believe that sex would be used as a tool of oppression. More talk of sexually transmitted diseases would create more fear. We would find ways of being able to have sex without human contact. It is even possible to use the Internet to arrange marriages. Making connections through statistics rather than emotions. Separation between people would become greater. We do not have community we become weaker as people. There would be a rise in disease and illness and more control via ego led powerful governments. as I write this, I keep seeing images of George Orwell’s 1984 when the couple get arrested for making love.

We are at a time of shift, for me the first form of shift is within the way we join together in love. It’s the small partial change of how we join together as community. We need to join together to make the changes we need to make, to be in a world we want to love living in.

However, it can be very hard to say ‘I’m sorry’ for what seems to be from the outside, one tiny thing we did wrong. As that one thing could be a symptom of a bigger disease that we are in denial of. To admit to the symptom, we are being asking to acknowledge, maybe more then we may feel able to see at this time. This is very true when it comes to parents. Admitting that they did something wrong in your childhood may open up a Pandora’s box for them. Which could result in them having to admit to the fact that they should never have even had a child. Being a parent is a person’s life’s work. This might make them feel that their entire history and life was a bad idea. For example if you trying to say throughout your childhood that your mother was angry, then your mother has to admit she felt like that for a good 15 years. That is a huge admittance. It isn’t always appropriate to push anyone into that kind of corner. It can lead a person to become depressed.  We want to look back on in life with a sense of pride. Having a child is possibly the greatest work a person can undertake. So getting a parent to admit their failings in order to heal a problem that you have, can be just unfair.

To wipe the slate completely clean to enter into a more healing relationship. The past is the past and it already has gone away. The next step is to listen in a very present way. You’re not just listening to the words being said, which is likely to trigger you into another furious melt down. Look at the body language and the way that the person is breathing. When you are being listened to yourself it is very important to watch the breath, because you’ll know if somebody’s been triggered by what you have said. The best way to see this is when a person suddenly takes a breath. The chest goes out, and the shoulders go up. Even if they don’t say it out loud to you, you will understand if with the next sentence they take a swipe you. They need to say something nasty is because they’ve been triggered by something that you said and it’s just a reaction. The trick here is not to react back in the same way.

In order to understand someone’s view point we have to listen with all of your intuition.

If you’ve ever had to make a complaint in the shop you would know how the complaint is handled will depend on whether not you become a valuable customer and the rest of your life. If the complaint is handled well then the chances are that you’re the shop in that particular store again and again. In actual fact you may be a better customer then if the problem hadn’t happened in the first place. I also believe that when it comes to our friendships and our connections. Problems and conflict can lead to best relationships and the best connection.

Some think that they are the car, that they are the thoughts in their head.

Others have thought bubbles within the car, which are about the car. These thought bubbles go round and round the inside, bouncing along the roof and the dash board. They sometimes even make it hard to see the direction that the car is travelling in. Too many thoughts about who we think we are going round and round inside what we think we are. Trying to come up with ways for the car to go faster, trying to find better roads to happiness. Constantly thinking of where the car is going and being stressed that it isn’t happening fast enough.

Outside the car, it’s a frustrating drive. We become irritated by the car in front driving too slow or acting crazy. We have to breathe the negative exhaust from the ‘asshole’ of the car in front of us. We feel tired from the drive and wonder when it is our time to arrive. Some spiritual types know this. Some have the sun roof open and the stereo on, singing to their favourite song about dreams and happiness. They look so happy, inside the car. Others are brave enough to have the top down and drive whilst yelling to the other drivers, ‘hey, you know you’re in a car, yer? Shift your consciousness man, get out of the car!’ Others are laying down on the roof of the car, soaking up the sun, smoking some pot and other drugs, drinking some wine,  looking at the clouds, meditating.

If we could take an aerial view, and shift our consciousness out of the car, we would see that we are driving our consciousness inside the greater conscious of mankind. The road goes round in a circle like a ring road It’s a grey polluted road, where no-one is getting anywhere fast.

Some people know this, or have a sense of it. But it doesn’t seem possible to do anything else but to stay in the car. Getting out of the car feels slower on the path to happiness, as we would have to walk. It might not be safe, other people would arrive before us and we might lose our loved ones. How would we carry all our stuff we have buried deep in the trunk of our subconscious that makes up who we are in the story of our life? Who would we be without it? If we don’t have the car we fear that we don’t have a ‘road’ to follow and we fear being empty without our dream destination. We cry at the wheel in loneliness as everyone else’s car appears somehow nicer and less empty then our own. The car is a trap, as whilst we are in it we have to pay someone all the time for gas, to get it fixed when it breaks through over use and we pay for the road that we drive on. We are enslaved to this condition.

If we shifted our aerial view further up in our consciousness we would see the road will never lead us to the happiness we want. We would see we have to get out and walk.

In walking we get off the road and take off into the wilderness, following our intuition, our inner knowing. We listen to nature for our signs of direction. At first we walk fast, on a mission to get where we believe we need to be. After a while we slow down and find the food and water we need. We find others who help us in the path through conversation and sharing. Soon we slow down so much that we stop and sit. After a few moments we look around and realize that we were here all the time, in the perfection we are seeking. We just had to get out of the car and see it for what it really is. The deep joy is always with us, we just have to know it. Driving the road of human insanity can only lead us to carry on acting insane.

But before you get out of your car and walk, do me a favour and crash your car into mine. Bump me hard into the car in front causing a domino effect of consciousness shifting. Until with have a pile up of merging minds, then and only then when we are all free, can we truly be free.

I believe that there are some skills in life that you don’t want to get paid for. I don’t want to be paid for singing. I love singing and don’t want to take it so seriously. I don’t want to get paid for sex, I guess the reasons for that are obvious and I don’t want to get paid for mediumship. The reasons why I don’t want to get paid for mediumship or even do mediumship might be hard to understand. I trained to become a medium even though it’s a gift I was born with, why would I have no interest in it?

Firstly, I am not sure I fully believe popular theory about it. I have seen some of the most revered and famous mediumships work their message through psychic means. If I am to pass on a message from someone living or dead, that message has to be right. For me too many mediums blindly believe what they are trained to believe without entering into personal inquiry or parapsychology. If you seek the spirit, you are more likely to stubble into a psychic connection. If the spirit seeks you with purpose the connection is unbelievably accurate and clear. So when a client comes to me seeking, I am left with no option but to seek on their behalf.

Secondly, there is an expectation of what the connection needs to look like. How it is delivered. It is normal for the client to be analysing the medium and the message. It often feels like being put to an exam. I don’t find it comfortable; it’s not very nice for me to do and so why would I, when I have so many other ways I can help people. It feels a bit like having to jump through hoops.

Thirdly, If there is something left unfinished or a problem stopping the living person moving on, then I know the spirit will come through to fix what is unfinished. The best connections always work in this way. If there is a purpose from the prospective of the dead person, the connection will be made through me. Often a living person will come out of curiosity. ‘Has someone in the spirit world got a message for me?’ The person then almost is seeking a reading and even future predictions and guidance through the spirit. I rarely have a client be interested in how the spirit is fitting into life in the afterlife! Sometimes they don’t even know anyone who is dead. I believe the root of this is our profound loneliness. It seems more special if a dead person goes to great effort to connect with us. It makes us feel loveable. Of course is no one comes through then it has the opposite effect. I don’t like seeing my client feel dejected.

And finally we are at a time of great crises in the world. I have decided that only the talents that interface with bring more love and peace to the planet are the ones I am interested in using. I want to find ways to stop people dying unconnected to those that they love. I want to bring a time when there is no need for mediums because no love is left unfelt. I want to bring love that ends the war that kills so many talented young men and woman needlessly. I want to bring consciousness that would make it impossible to plant land mines or drop bombs that harm children. If my mediumship can bring one thing forward from the spirit world, it would be to seek the wisdom of the ascended masters. I would ask the question ‘how can we fix this mess and bring more love?’ The only thing I have any interest in, is being a catalyst to bring more love to the world, to bring forth a shift of consciousness to bring peace and healing to the planet. I / We simply don’t have time for anything else.

I don’t feel that mediumship interfaces strongly enough with what the world needs most right now. Mediumship was a wonderful stepping stone for me to be able to link into the collective consciousness. What I hear from the human collective consciousness can’t be healed with mediumship. It can however be healed with using intuition. Intuition allows us to have a knowing which means we can open our hearts safely. This isn’t the ego intuition which means we can ‘read’ people. This is the intuition which connects us to feel the aspects of who we are in everyone living and dead.

There is a place for and important job for mediums. As many of us knew years ago, there would be an uprising of people who have mediumship talents as the vibration of the planet speeds up. I just need to look at the amount of mediums on facebook who want to ‘friend’ me, that makes me realise how many are out there. I hope they find the integrity to let go of the thoughtful, finger pointing, dry ice photos and keep hold of the important job they have. It’s not an easy job. It can be the most humbling and rewarding.  The real art is to give love and the connection of love, no matter where it shows up. Bx